It's frustrating to me how I can let life zap me in the matter of a mili-second. I can feel so high and the next moment, not. Today is a "not" day. My Mother-in-Law is quite elderly and has had some major health problems lately. My husband and I have been passing each other coming and going to care for her. I miss him.
I'm such a roller coaster. I hate moods. Wish I could just push the happy button.
Last Friday night was a "high" for me because the new Harry Potter book came out. I read the whole thing in 24 hours. Loved it. (No spoilers here)
This morning I woke up around 5:30 a.m. with a wonderful dream about my Grandpa. He was making me laugh really hard; in fact, it woke me up. Then I felt that moment being sucked away as I remembered once again that he's gone. Tears poured and I couldn't make them stop. I haven't cried about that for months. I couldn't go back to sleep, so I got up and started writing.
Writing brings relief for me. Wish I could write like J.K. Rowling.